| Location | Wigan |
| Age | 20 years |
| Cause of Death | Accident |
| Date of Birth | 04/10/1986 |
| Date of Death | 25/11/2006 |
| Visitors | 3,431 since 03/10/2008 |
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Tony was my son but also my friend. He found it hard to mix with people and turned to alcohol to
give himself confidence and in the end it was this that took his short life away from his three
brothers and his sister his dad his aunties uncles cousins grandparents nephews and nieces and of
course myself. He did have many friends so many i cant name them all He was an angel when he was
sober but a little devil when he had had a few beers. Its coming up to our Tonys 23rd birthday so i
thought i would update his memorial.It still feels like yesterday and i can still remember every
single detail of that day anyone who as lost their child will know what i mean the friday before
this happened we had had a falling out nothing unusual coz he was a little pest when he was drunk he
went sitting in the entry next to our house and i went in the bath i could hear him calling me "mum
"mum " i had locked the door until he had calmed down then when he went quiet i crept down and
unlocked the door coz i knew he would come in later, i lied in bed waiting to hear him come in then
he went in his room and only then could i fall asleep knowing he was safe,the next morning when i
got up for work he normally would be waiting outside the bedroom door to wind me up but he wernt so
just before i left for work i crept into his room to check he was ok and he looked so peacefull fast
asleep i went to work feeling happy. Around 12.30 on my way home from work i went a different way
home never done this before because the way i went was longer and i even waited in traffic when
there was none my usual way,i got home and it was silent but i could hear our tonys radio on in his
room but no noise so thought he might still be asleep,i then went to pick his dad up from work and
when we arrived back home i said to him listen he said what to i said its to quiet then my sister
rang and said she had passed an ambulance just around corner on my usual route home she asked was
our tony in but that was normal because everytime anything happened we always thought about him
being in trouble within 10 mins i had a phone call of a girl asking if our tony was ok i didnt want
to check his room i was to scared to. so i rang hospital and asked if he had been taken to hospital
and the nurse who answewed asked who i was and said she would ring me back as i put the phone down
and looked through the window i saw a woman look towards our house i knew then he had gone i said to
his dad when the police come to tell us dont open door at that moment i saw a car pull onto the
front of our house i just ran upstairs screaming dont tell me dont tell me i already knew i had lost
my baby boy. I remember them asking me to identify him a few days later and when i went to the
mortuary i saw him and he looked so happy i turned to the officer there and said he dont look like
hes dead to me and i know this sounds so stupid but i really thought they had made a mistake it was
only a few days later when i had not seen him that i began to realise he wernt going to come home
again It seems he had fallen drunk and a so called friend had run of and left him on a field to this
day i think if this person would have called an ambulance he would still be here,an old lady in her
late 80s i would say found him and tried to save him god bless her she tried all she could i went to
see her and she said she tried to bring him round but couldnt i cant thank this kind lady enough.I
have just found out a young lad found him first and ran to call an ambulance i only found this out a
few days ago and have still to thank him for doing so . Tony wasnt my youngest but he was in my eyes
my baby and will always be my baby,You know what i still feel the same pain today as i did that day
it wont ever go away and i dont want it to coz i wont ever forget him even for an hour. At his
funeral about a week later his three brothers and his cousin john who he was close to carried him
into church this was the first time i had seen his coffin it was heartbreaking and his eldest
brother warren stood up to speak about him it must of been so hard for him but he did him proud and
me to.lots of people came except the so called friend who i hope i never see again..you never really
spoke about your friends but since we lost you so many have told me things you did some funny some
proper daft but that was you lad didnt think about the consequences you didnt bother .love you so
much , MISS YOU MY BEAUTIFUL SON SO MUCH WILL THINK ABOUT YOU EVERY SECOND OF EVERYDAY. I DO BELIEVE
YOU ARE IN A BETTER PLACE AND WHEN IT COMES MY TIME TO GO I WILL BE SO HAPPY TO SEE YOU AGAIN. ALL
MY LOVE NOW AND ALWAYS FOR EVER AND EVER LOVE MUM XXXXXXXX AND IF YOUR READING THIS LOVE I DID FEEL
THE KISS YOU GAVE ME WHEN I WAS ALMOST ASLEEP AND IT FELT SO NICE.
EYES ARE THE WINDOW OF THE SOUL....
LOOK INTO MY EYES THEY ARE SO FULL OF PAIN
MY LIFE WILL NEVER BE THE SAME EVER AGAIN
THEY SAY THE EYES ARE THE WINDOW OF THE SOUL
WELL THAT MUST BE TRUE BECAUISE I WILL NEVER BE WHOLE
I AM HALF THE PERSON I USED TO BE RIGHT NOW
THOUGH I STILL HAVE TO CARRY ON SOME HOW
JUST BECAUSE THIS IS ALWAYS EXPECTED OF ME
WELL THEY CAN FORGET IT NOW SON I WANT TO BE FREE
FREE FROM THE PAIN THE HURT THAT I HIDE
I JUST WANT TO BE RIGHT BY YOUR SIDE
I CANNOT CARRY ON WITHOUT YOU ALL HERE
I NEED TO FEEL YOU CLOSE BY MY SIDE AND NEAR
copyright© Ros Roberts LOVE VALXXXXXX
Gone But
Not Forgotten
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mornings
every morning as soon as i opened my bedroom door you would be stood outside it waiting for me just to wind me up, you were always there with me even if i went to the toilet you would sit outside you were like my shadow i sometimes nearly fell over you you were that close being daft and sometimes you did my head in but i couldnt help but laugh and thats what your intention was to make me laugh.I love and miss you so much time they say is a great healer not true coz i miss you more and more everyday
with love xxx
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Those we love can never be
More than a thought apart,
For as long as there is memory,
They'll live on in the heart.
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With Love. xxx
Tears
♥α¦♥ Tears are delightful expressions
Of happiness, sorrow, and love,
Made to release deep emotions,
A special gift sent from above.
When seeing sweet thoughts of a loved one
Midst memories of days of old,
A tear finds a cheek in the moonlight
As thoughts reach deep in the soul.
In moments of anger, frustrations and grief,
When happy thoughts flee like a thief,
Running away with our hopes and our cares,
A tear brings welcome relief.
If unwanted sorrow consumes us
And life seems so hard to bear,
With time a soul is healed,
Restored with the help of a tear.
Sun and beauty bring health to the soul
Through all of the days of our lives,
Deepest feelings of thanks are expressed
Through tears which appear in our eyes.
Be grateful for tears for their presence
Restores our most glorious thoughts
Of laughter, compassion and loving,
The most precious gifts of all ♥α¦♥
With love xxx
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After the clouds, the sunshine,
after the winter, the spring,
after the shower, the rainbow,
for life is a changeable thing.
After the night, the morning,
bidding all darkness cease,
after life's cares and sorrows,
the comfort and sweetness of peace.
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I’d like the memory of me
to be a happy one.
I’d like to leave an after glow
of smiles when life is done,
I’d like to leave an echo
whispering softly down the ways,
Of happy times and laughing
times and bright and
summer days.
I’d like the tears of those who
grieve, to dry before the sun,
Of happy memories that I leave
When life is done.
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A butterfly lights beside us like a sunbeam
And for a brief moment its glory
and beauty belong to our world
But then it flies again
And though we wish it could have stayed...
We feel lucky to have seen it.
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I thought of you with love today but that is nothing new
I thought about you yesterday and days before that too,
I think of you in silence I often speak your name
All I have are memories and your picture in a frame
Your memory is my keepsake with which I’ll never part
God has you in His keeping I have you in my heart.
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When I am gone, release me, let me go
I have so many things to see and do
You must not tie yourself to me with tears
Be happy that I have had so many years
I gave you my love, you can only guess
How much you gave me in happiness
I think you for the love each have shown
But now it is time I traveled on alone
So grieve a while for me, if grieve you must
Then let your grief be comforted by trust
It is only for a while that we must part
So bless the memoriss in your heart
I will not be far away, for life goes on
So if you need me, call and I will come
Though you can not see or touch me, I will be near
And if you listen with your heart, you will hear
All of my love around you soft and clear
Then, when you must come this way alone
I will greet you with a smile and a
"Welcome Home"
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Dandelions from heaven
Mothers Day is coming...and I wanted to send you a sign...
Something you can tell others..."Is from an angel of mine".
So I searched the Heavens high and low for that perfect thing..
And low and behold I found it....and a smile I hope it will bring.
So when you look to the Heavens...and see the yellow stars in the sky...
Just think of me...your angel... in the Heavens way up high...
And just imagine those stars...are dandelions up above...
Yes! Dandelions are also in Heaven...,which you know how much I love.
So on this Mothers Day... when you awake and feel blue...
You will notice those yellow stars...are no longer in view...
So just look to the meadows and the dandelions you see....
Are the ones I've tossed down this Mothers Day from me!
And when you find a dandelion that has turned from yellow to white...
You're supposed to make a wish...and then blow with all your might.
For you will be blowing kisses... to me in Heaven above....
And I will be catching them and blowing them back...sent with all my love.
Please know that I am with you...on this Mothers Day...
And also in the days ahead...God and I will never stray...
We will be with you in the morning...when you wake and see the sun..
We will be with you when you say your prayers...when the day is done.
For God and I will never be...very far from your side...
For I can now be everywhere...and God will be your guide...
So...remember when you see dandelions...its your guarantee...
That I am alway close to you....
For dandelions are free to roam.....now just like me.
I will always be with you Mum....
Happy Mothers Day
Love, Your Angel in Heaven.
xxxx
mother and son
the bond between a mother and son is a special one. it remains unchanged by time or distance. it is the purest love unconditional and true its understanding of any situation and forgiving of any mistakes. the bond between mother and son creates a support that is constant while everything else changes, it is a friendship based on mutual love,respect and a genuine liking of each other as a person. it is knowing that no matter where you go or who you are there is someone who truly loves you and is always there to support and console you.the bond between you both is brave enough to always speak the truth even when lies would be easier it is always there anytime anywhere whenever it is needed it is a gift held in the heart and soul and it cannot be taken away or exchanged for another to possess this love is a treasure. love you so much my darling son forever x x x x
When tomorrow starts without me
And I'm not there to see;
If the sun should rise and find your eyes
All filled with tears for me.
I wish so much you wouldn't cry
The way you did today;
While thinking of the many things
We didn't get to say.
I know how much you love me...
As much as I love you;
And each time that you think of me,
I know you'll miss me too.
But when tomorrow starts without me
Please try to understand,
That an angel came and called my name
And took me by the hand.
She said my place was ready
In heaven far above;
And that I'd have to leave behind,
All those I dearly love.
But as I turned to walk away,
A tear fell from my eye;
I didn't want to leave you here
I was too young to die.
I had so much to live for,
So much yet to do;
It seemed almost impossible,
That I was leaving you.
I thought of you and Daddy
And how much you needed me
Of all things I'll never do
And things I'll never see.
And when I thought of worldly things
I would miss come tomorrow;
I thought of you, and when I did,
My heart was filled with sorrow.
But the angel bent and whispered
A secret only I could hear
She said that true love never dies
That I would still be near.
So when tomorrow starts without me,
Don't think we're far apart...
For every time you think of me,
I'm right there ... in your heart.
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God bless Tony xxxx
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