| Location | Wigan |
| Age | 20 years |
| Cause of Death | Accident |
| Date of Birth | 04/10/1986 |
| Date of Death | 25/11/2006 |
| Visitors | 3,430 since 03/10/2008 |
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Tony was my son but also my friend. He found it hard to mix with people and turned to alcohol to
give himself confidence and in the end it was this that took his short life away from his three
brothers and his sister his dad his aunties uncles cousins grandparents nephews and nieces and of
course myself. He did have many friends so many i cant name them all He was an angel when he was
sober but a little devil when he had had a few beers. Its coming up to our Tonys 23rd birthday so i
thought i would update his memorial.It still feels like yesterday and i can still remember every
single detail of that day anyone who as lost their child will know what i mean the friday before
this happened we had had a falling out nothing unusual coz he was a little pest when he was drunk he
went sitting in the entry next to our house and i went in the bath i could hear him calling me "mum
"mum " i had locked the door until he had calmed down then when he went quiet i crept down and
unlocked the door coz i knew he would come in later, i lied in bed waiting to hear him come in then
he went in his room and only then could i fall asleep knowing he was safe,the next morning when i
got up for work he normally would be waiting outside the bedroom door to wind me up but he wernt so
just before i left for work i crept into his room to check he was ok and he looked so peacefull fast
asleep i went to work feeling happy. Around 12.30 on my way home from work i went a different way
home never done this before because the way i went was longer and i even waited in traffic when
there was none my usual way,i got home and it was silent but i could hear our tonys radio on in his
room but no noise so thought he might still be asleep,i then went to pick his dad up from work and
when we arrived back home i said to him listen he said what to i said its to quiet then my sister
rang and said she had passed an ambulance just around corner on my usual route home she asked was
our tony in but that was normal because everytime anything happened we always thought about him
being in trouble within 10 mins i had a phone call of a girl asking if our tony was ok i didnt want
to check his room i was to scared to. so i rang hospital and asked if he had been taken to hospital
and the nurse who answewed asked who i was and said she would ring me back as i put the phone down
and looked through the window i saw a woman look towards our house i knew then he had gone i said to
his dad when the police come to tell us dont open door at that moment i saw a car pull onto the
front of our house i just ran upstairs screaming dont tell me dont tell me i already knew i had lost
my baby boy. I remember them asking me to identify him a few days later and when i went to the
mortuary i saw him and he looked so happy i turned to the officer there and said he dont look like
hes dead to me and i know this sounds so stupid but i really thought they had made a mistake it was
only a few days later when i had not seen him that i began to realise he wernt going to come home
again It seems he had fallen drunk and a so called friend had run of and left him on a field to this
day i think if this person would have called an ambulance he would still be here,an old lady in her
late 80s i would say found him and tried to save him god bless her she tried all she could i went to
see her and she said she tried to bring him round but couldnt i cant thank this kind lady enough.I
have just found out a young lad found him first and ran to call an ambulance i only found this out a
few days ago and have still to thank him for doing so . Tony wasnt my youngest but he was in my eyes
my baby and will always be my baby,You know what i still feel the same pain today as i did that day
it wont ever go away and i dont want it to coz i wont ever forget him even for an hour. At his
funeral about a week later his three brothers and his cousin john who he was close to carried him
into church this was the first time i had seen his coffin it was heartbreaking and his eldest
brother warren stood up to speak about him it must of been so hard for him but he did him proud and
me to.lots of people came except the so called friend who i hope i never see again..you never really
spoke about your friends but since we lost you so many have told me things you did some funny some
proper daft but that was you lad didnt think about the consequences you didnt bother .love you so
much , MISS YOU MY BEAUTIFUL SON SO MUCH WILL THINK ABOUT YOU EVERY SECOND OF EVERYDAY. I DO BELIEVE
YOU ARE IN A BETTER PLACE AND WHEN IT COMES MY TIME TO GO I WILL BE SO HAPPY TO SEE YOU AGAIN. ALL
MY LOVE NOW AND ALWAYS FOR EVER AND EVER LOVE MUM XXXXXXXX AND IF YOUR READING THIS LOVE I DID FEEL
THE KISS YOU GAVE ME WHEN I WAS ALMOST ASLEEP AND IT FELT SO NICE.
Gone, but not forgotten
This pain, I cannot hide
In memory, I see you
A million tears, I’ve cried.
The tender thoughts you left me
Come to my memory
Your loving smile, so precious
Will always be with me.
You visit me in summer
When flowers are in bloom
Upon a ray of sunshine
A star-lit night in June.
When winds are gently blowing
Across a cloudless sky
Within a rolling meadow
Where horse and cattle lie.
I see you in the treetops
As summer comes to be
In shadows, you do linger
A soul so young and free.
I see you in the garden
Your scent does fill the air
Just like a precious flower
A rose, so ever fair.
On country roads, I find you
Along the wooded lane
Within the distant thunder
I see you in the rain.
In early hush of morning
You come without a sound
Upon a blazing sunset
Your memory can be found.
Like sprigs of morning glory
Upon the vine, they grow
With branches reaching outward
Into my heart, you go.
Just like a special angel
God wrapped you in His care
And took you off to heaven
To live with Him, up there.
But often, I still see you
Upon a light blue sky
And long so much to hold you
Why did you have to die?
♥*♥ MISS YOU ♥*♥♥*♥ ♥*♥ ♥*♥ ♥*♥ ♥*♥ ♥*♥ ♥*♥ ♥*♥
I MISS YOU
AND I ALWAYS WILL,
MY ACHING ARMS
MISS YOUR EMBRACE,
THAT LOVING SMILE
ACROSS YOUR FACE.
I LOVED YOU
FROM THE MOMENT
I SAW YOU
AND I WOULD DO
ANYTHING FOR YOU,
I WOULD BE
RIGHT BESIDE YOU
IF ONLY I KNEW
HOW TO FIND YOU.
I FILL THE DAY'S
OF EMPTYNESS
THINKING OF
NOTHING BUT YOU,
I HAVE BEEN
FROZEN IN TIME
IN A PLACE WHERE
IM LOST, WITHOUT YOU.
YOU GAVE ME THE BEST
YEARS OF MY LIFE,
IN MY HEART
FOREVER WILL BE,
YOU WILL ALWAYS
BE APART OF ME.
MY GUIDING LIGHT
MY BRIGHT STAR
IN THE NIGHT.
THE WIND TO YOU
BLOWS MY LOVE
I HOPE IT FINDS YOU
THERE UP ABOVE.
ALWAYS MY EVERYTHING
IM LONGING FOR THE DAY
I TO, GET MY WINGS.
Author: Anne Ellender.
♥*♥ ♥*♥ ♥*♥ ♥*♥ ♥*♥ ♥*♥ ♥*♥ ♥*♥
♥daddy♥daddy♥daddy♥daddy♥daddy♥daddy♥daddy♥daddy♥daddy
A DADDY YOU WILL NEVER BE
JUST ONE OF THE DREAMS
YOU LONGED TO SEE,
A WONDERFUL DADDY
YOU WOULD BE,
YOUR CHILDREN LOVED,
SO FULL OF GLEE.
PLAYING WITH DADDY
BOUNCING ON YOUR KNEE
DAYS AT THE BEACH
SPLASHING IN THE SEA,
WHAT A PROUD DADDY
ALL WOULD SEE.
DADDY'S LIL GIRL
IS WHO SHE WOULD BE
HAPPY, LOVING
CUDDLES FOR FREE
LIKE THE WAY
YOU WERE WITH ME.
DADDY'S LIL MAN
HOW TALL HE WOULD STAND
ALWAYS SO PROUD
TO HOLD DAD'S HAND
YOUR SON WOULD BE
YOUR NO1 FAN.
OH SON
A FATHER YOU SHOULD BE
AND ALL THE THINGS
YOU WERE MEANT TO SEE,
THIS FATHER'S DAY
I'LL BE THINKING OF YOU
AND ALL THE THINGS
YOU'LL NOT GET TO DO.
Author: Anne Ellender.
♥daddy♥daddy♥daddy♥daddy♥daddy♥daddy♥daddy♥daddy♥daddy
BOND LIKE NO OTHER
THE BOND BETWEEN A SON AND HIS MOTHER
IS TRULY, LIKE NO OTHER
YOU CAN RIP THIER ARMS APART
BUT NEVER TAKE
THE LOVE FROM THIER HEART'S
YOU CAN SEVER THE ANCHOR,
THAT HOLDS THEM TOGETHER
BUT THIER LOVE WONT SINK,
IT WILL LAST FOREVER
YOU CAN TAKE FROM SIGHT,
ALL THE LOVING SMILES
BUT YOU CAN NEVER BLIND,
MEMORIES ISLES
YOU CAN STRETCH THEM APART
BUT THEY'RE BONDED AT THE HEART
NOT EVEN DEATH
WILL TEAR THEM APART
YOU CAN BREAK MY HEART
AND THIS HAS BEEN DONE
BUT IM ALWAYS HIS MOTHER
A BOND LIKE NO OTHER
ALWAYS, NOW AND FOREVER.
Author: Anne Ellender.
:*♥*: YOU :*♥*:
:*♥*: :*♥*: :*♥*: :*♥*: :*♥*: :*♥*: :*♥*:
THE LONGEST ROAD WITHOUT YOU
BUT BE SURE, I'LL NEVER FORGET YOU
IT HURT'S SO MUCH WITHOUT YOU
ALL I LIVED FOR, WAS YOU
CANNOT SMILE, WITHOUT YOU
DO YOU KNOW, HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU
MY WHOLE DAY, I MISS YOU
FOREVER, I LONG TO HOLD YOU
DON'T WANT ANYTHING, IF I CAN'T HAVE YOU
I NEED, ONLY TO BE WITH YOU
MY LIFE, IS ALL ABOUT YOU.
Author: Anne Ellender.
:*♥*: :*♥*: :*♥*: :*♥*: :*♥*: :*♥*: :*♥*:
The Next Place
By Warren Hanson
The next place that I go
Will be as peaceful and familiar
As a sleepy summer Sunday
And a sweet, untroubled mind.
And yet . . .
It won't be anything like any place I've ever been. . .
Or seen. . . or even dreamed of
In the place I leave behind.
I won't know where I'm going,
And I won't know where I've been
As I tumble through the always
And look back toward the when.
I'll glide beyond the rainbows.
I'll drift above the sky.
I'll fly into the wonder, without ever wondering why.
I won't remember getting there.
Somehow I'll just arrive.
But I'll know that I belong there
And will feel much more alive
Than I have ever felt before.
I will be absolutely free of the things that I held onto
That were holding onto me.
The next place that I go
Will be so quiet and so still
That the whispered song of sweet belonging will rise up to fill
The listening sky with joyful silence,
And with unheard harmonies
Of music made by no one playing,
Like a hush upon breeze.
There will be no room for darkness in that place of living light,
Where an ever-dawning morning pushes back the dying night.
The very air will fill with brilliance, as the brightly shining sun
And the moon and half a million stars are married into one.
The next place that I go Won't really be a place at all.
There won't be any seasons --
Winter, summer, spring or fall --
Nor a Monday, Nor a Friday,
Nor December, Nor July.
And the seconds will be standing still. . .
While hours hurry by.
I will not be a boy or girl,
A woman or man.
I'll simply be just, simply, me.
No worse or better than.
My skin will not be dark or light.
I won't be fat or tall.
The body I once lived in
Won't be part of me at all.
I will finally be perfect.
I will be without a flaw.
I will never make one more mistake,
Or break the smallest law.
And the me that was impatient,
Or was angry, or unkind,
Will simply be a memory.
The me I left behind.
I will travel empty-handed.
There is not a single thing
I have collected in my life
That I would ever want to bring Except. . .
The love of those who loved me,
And the warmth of those who cared.
The happiness and memories
And magic that we shared.
Though I will know the joy of solitude. . .
I'll never be alone. I'll be embraced
By all the family and friends I've ever known.
Although I might not see their faces,
All our hearts will beat as one,
And the circle of our spirits
Will shine brighter than the sun.
I will cherish all the friendship I was fortunate to find,
All love and all the laughter in the place I leave behind.
All these good things will go with me.
They will make my spirit glow.
And that light will shine forever In the next place that I go.
Never Be Forgotten
I’ll always see your face
The corner of your smile
And all the little things that no one will ever know
Like it was yesterday, won’t ever fade away
Goodbye is just a word that I will never say
You will never be forgotten
A million days could pass us by
But what is time but just a dream
Oh I still feel you here with me
You’re more than a memory
Oh you will never be forgotten
I can‘t hold your hand
Or look into your eyes
And when I talk to you
It just echoes in my mind
But If hearts are made of dust
And if we fell from the stars
I look up tonight and know just where you are
You will never be forgotten
A million days could pass us by
But what is time but just a dream
Oh I still feel you here with me
You’re more than a memory
Oh you will never be forgotten
And the world just keeps on going
It has no way of knowing
That you’re gone
You will never be forgotten
A million days could pass us by
But what is time but just a dream
Oh I still feel you here with me
You’re more than a memory
Oh you will never be forgotten
summer
i used to like summer time now it just brings back so many memories of you all the young lads walking round in their shorts with their tops of i think i see you everywhere i stop and stare then when they face me its not you love and it really hurts i miss you more than words can say and if you were here now watching me crying my eyes out you would go mad, when you upset me and i cried you used to say i was only crying so you would feel sorry for me .you just found it hard to show your emotions but i know with all my heart that you loved us all to bits oh lad why did god have to take you i know everyone on here will feel the same its just hard love you . xx mumxx
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WHAT HAPPEND TO THE HUMAN RACE?
MATERIAL THINGS, CAN BE REPLACED.
WHAT IMPORTENCE OF WHAT YOU OWN,
WHY OVER THE WEATHER
THEY MOAN AND GROAN
WHY, EVERYTHING HAS TO BE TODAY
DON'T THEY KNOW
TOMORROW WILL COME
DOES IT REALY MATTER
WHAT THEY'VE NOT DONE,
SO YOU DONT HAVE ENOUGH MONEY
TO BUY THAT NEW HAT
REALY, IS IT ABSOLUTALY ALL THAT
WHAT HAPPEND TO THE HUMAN RACE
WHO USED TO BE GREATFUL
FOR WHAT ONE'S GOT,
DONT BE SO SORRY
FOR WHAT YOU HAVE NOT.
REALIZE WHAT YOU'VE GOT,
IT'S AN AWFUL LOT,
MATERIAL THINGS CAN BE REPLACED
A DAY WITHOUT A SMILE
CAN BE ERACED.
I WOULD GIVE ALL THAT I HAVE
ANYTHING, EVERYTHING AND MORE
JUST TO HAVE MY CHILD
HOME ONCE MORE.
Author. Anne Ellender. 2009
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