| Location | Wigan |
| Age | 20 years |
| Cause of Death | Accident |
| Date of Birth | 04/10/1986 |
| Date of Death | 25/11/2006 |
| Visitors | 3,432 since 03/10/2008 |
| Creator |
Tony was my son but also my friend. He found it hard to mix with people and turned to alcohol to
give himself confidence and in the end it was this that took his short life away from his three
brothers and his sister his dad his aunties uncles cousins grandparents nephews and nieces and of
course myself. He did have many friends so many i cant name them all He was an angel when he was
sober but a little devil when he had had a few beers. Its coming up to our Tonys 23rd birthday so i
thought i would update his memorial.It still feels like yesterday and i can still remember every
single detail of that day anyone who as lost their child will know what i mean the friday before
this happened we had had a falling out nothing unusual coz he was a little pest when he was drunk he
went sitting in the entry next to our house and i went in the bath i could hear him calling me "mum
"mum " i had locked the door until he had calmed down then when he went quiet i crept down and
unlocked the door coz i knew he would come in later, i lied in bed waiting to hear him come in then
he went in his room and only then could i fall asleep knowing he was safe,the next morning when i
got up for work he normally would be waiting outside the bedroom door to wind me up but he wernt so
just before i left for work i crept into his room to check he was ok and he looked so peacefull fast
asleep i went to work feeling happy. Around 12.30 on my way home from work i went a different way
home never done this before because the way i went was longer and i even waited in traffic when
there was none my usual way,i got home and it was silent but i could hear our tonys radio on in his
room but no noise so thought he might still be asleep,i then went to pick his dad up from work and
when we arrived back home i said to him listen he said what to i said its to quiet then my sister
rang and said she had passed an ambulance just around corner on my usual route home she asked was
our tony in but that was normal because everytime anything happened we always thought about him
being in trouble within 10 mins i had a phone call of a girl asking if our tony was ok i didnt want
to check his room i was to scared to. so i rang hospital and asked if he had been taken to hospital
and the nurse who answewed asked who i was and said she would ring me back as i put the phone down
and looked through the window i saw a woman look towards our house i knew then he had gone i said to
his dad when the police come to tell us dont open door at that moment i saw a car pull onto the
front of our house i just ran upstairs screaming dont tell me dont tell me i already knew i had lost
my baby boy. I remember them asking me to identify him a few days later and when i went to the
mortuary i saw him and he looked so happy i turned to the officer there and said he dont look like
hes dead to me and i know this sounds so stupid but i really thought they had made a mistake it was
only a few days later when i had not seen him that i began to realise he wernt going to come home
again It seems he had fallen drunk and a so called friend had run of and left him on a field to this
day i think if this person would have called an ambulance he would still be here,an old lady in her
late 80s i would say found him and tried to save him god bless her she tried all she could i went to
see her and she said she tried to bring him round but couldnt i cant thank this kind lady enough.I
have just found out a young lad found him first and ran to call an ambulance i only found this out a
few days ago and have still to thank him for doing so . Tony wasnt my youngest but he was in my eyes
my baby and will always be my baby,You know what i still feel the same pain today as i did that day
it wont ever go away and i dont want it to coz i wont ever forget him even for an hour. At his
funeral about a week later his three brothers and his cousin john who he was close to carried him
into church this was the first time i had seen his coffin it was heartbreaking and his eldest
brother warren stood up to speak about him it must of been so hard for him but he did him proud and
me to.lots of people came except the so called friend who i hope i never see again..you never really
spoke about your friends but since we lost you so many have told me things you did some funny some
proper daft but that was you lad didnt think about the consequences you didnt bother .love you so
much , MISS YOU MY BEAUTIFUL SON SO MUCH WILL THINK ABOUT YOU EVERY SECOND OF EVERYDAY. I DO BELIEVE
YOU ARE IN A BETTER PLACE AND WHEN IT COMES MY TIME TO GO I WILL BE SO HAPPY TO SEE YOU AGAIN. ALL
MY LOVE NOW AND ALWAYS FOR EVER AND EVER LOVE MUM XXXXXXXX AND IF YOUR READING THIS LOVE I DID FEEL
THE KISS YOU GAVE ME WHEN I WAS ALMOST ASLEEP AND IT FELT SO NICE.
In my dreams, you are alive and well
Precious child, precious child
In my mind, I see you clear as a bell
Precious child, precious child
In my soul, there is a hole
That can never be filled
But in my heart, there is hope
'Cause you are with me still
In my heart, you live on
Always there never gone
Precious child, you left too soon
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart
In my plans, I was the first to leave
Precious child, precious child
But in this world, I was left here to grieve
Precious child, my precious child
In my soul, there is a hole
That can never be filled
But in my heart there is hope
And you are with me still
In my heart you live on
Always there, never gone
Precious child, you left too soon,
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart
God knows I want to hold you,
See you, touch you
And I know there's a heaven
And someday I will again
Please know you are not forgotten until then
In my heart you live on
Always there never gone
Precious child, you left too soon
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart
miss u tony !! ull neva be forgotten !!
god i didnt even no u was on eya else i would ov rote sooner. god tony i always think bout u i always think about dat day u passed away. i seen u in da morning in tesco up pem. n u was shouting ur ed off lol. ill not say wot u said 2 me but u n i no wot u said n i walked out n left u coz u made me all embarrassed. lol. i wish i hadnt coz u never no u mite not be wer u r now. member dat time wen we was in mine wen i lived up pem n we drunk all my mums martini. n u didnt wana go after dat coz u cudnt be bovard walkin ome. n for u 2 go i ad give u my mums over bottle ov martini. cheeky get lol. but dats wot i loved about u. im with dean bootle now. one ov ur close mates. god wen i was wiv u i didnt even no im. well i didnt like im e used get on my nerves lol. n look wer i am now. n some things wot e does r so like wot ud do. e says e misses u n dont be falling sleep anywer up der like u did down eya lol. anyway ill be thinking about u on my birthday n ur birthday coz its day after mine init 4th october. miss u n love u 4eva tony. cya up der. love u lots n lots like jellytots but not as much as vodka shots. sleeptite. lucy x x x x
*** DREAMS ***
DREAMS DON'T REALY COME TRUE,
NIGHTMARES STAY, FOR SURE,
ALL HOPES OF BEFOR
HAVE LEFT THROUGH THE DOOR
NOW YOUR HERE, NO MORE.
DREAMS ARE FOR THE LUCKY,
WHO KNOW NOT WHAT SORROW BRINGS
TO HAVE HOPES FOR THE FUTURE
NOT MEMORIES FROM THE PAST
AND AN ACHE THAT FOREVER LAST'S.
BUT, MY DREAM'S ARE PRECIOUS
THE BEST I'V EVER HAD,
MY MEMORIES ARE MY TREASURES
OF A LIFE THAT WAS SO GLAD,
IT'S ONLY WHEN THE NIGHTFALLS,
MY WORLD DOES'NT FEEL SO BAD.
Copyrite. Anne Ellender. 2009
LONELY DAY
AS THE MORNING SUN RISES
I PULL MYSELF OUT OF BED
NO MORE CONVERSATION
NOTHING MORE TO BE SAID
THOUGHT'S RUNNING THROUGH MY HEAD
DREAMING OF HOW IT SHOULD BE
SAT HERE ON MY OWN
THE WORST KIND OF LONLEY
KNOWING I SHOULD BE SMILING AT MY SON
THE DAY AHEAD STILL MUST BE DONE
I PULL MYSELF UP AND TAKE ON THE CHORE
BEHIND ME SLOWLY CLOSING THE DOOR
MY MASK IN PLACE I FACE THE DAY
ONLY REALY WANTING TO RUN AWAY
AH SOON THE DAY WILL BE DONE
AND BACK TO THE EMPTY ROOM THAT BELONGS TO MY SON
HERE I WILL SIT, I'LL REMINICE
LONGING FOR MY SON, BY MY SIDE TO SIT
THE NIGHTIME FALLS AND MY PILLOW CALLS
AT LAST ONCE AGAIN, IN MY DREAMS....
MY DARLING SON I CAN HOLD.
copyrite: Anne Ellender.
my long lost luv ov my life
MY TONY MY LOVE MISSIN U MUCH...
A WISH ME ND U STAYED 2GEVA N INTOUCH,
B4 U WAS SADLY TOOKAWAY FROM THIS CRUE3L WORLD
MY HEART IN PIECES SO HURT ND CHURNED
A WISH A CUD JUST TURN BK THE TIME BUT I CANT,
N AL NEVER BE ABLE2 SO DATS NOWT 2 AV IN MIND
AL NEVER FORGET U R LET A DAY PASS BY TO NEVER AV
U IN MY PRAYERS N MY THOUGHTS DAY N NITE
KISS ME HOLD ME LUV ME SO RITE
OH ITS A DREAM N IT NT REALLY GUD IN MY SIGHT..
UR IMAGES OV U ND UR BIG BLUE EYES
ND UR DARK LONG LASHES, A ADMIRED THAT LIT UR FACE UP SO BRIGHT.. UR GAWJUS SMILE N UR DIMPLES SO FINE,,AV FROM START N WILL TILL END O TIME...XXXX
TONY I LOVE U ALWAYS
TO SEE
IM LESS NOW THAN I SHOULD BE
SURROUNDED BY DARKNESS
I FIND IT HARD TO SEE,
FOREVER KNEELING ON MY KNEES
BEGGING FOR YOU
TO COME BACK TO ME.
YOU WERE ALWAYS THERE FOR ME
ALWAYS WILLING ONLY TO PLEASE,
MY RAY OF SUNSHINE
COME DAY OR NIGHT,
UNTIL YOUR WINGS YOU GOT,
AND THEN TOOK FLIGHT.
TOMORROW LIKE TODAY
BY YOUR SIDE, ALL THE WAY
THAT'S WHERE I WOULD BE,
TOGETHER AGAIN, JUST YOU AND ME
WHOLE AGAIN, WITH YOUR SMILE TO SEE.
Copyrite: Anne Ellender
WHY
I FEEL SO DOWN
AND EMPTY INSIDE,
MY PAIN CONTINUALLY
HARD TO HIDE.
I FEEL SO SAD
AND LONELY TO,
LIVING THIS LIFE
IT'S HARD.. WITHOUT YOU.
I FEEL SO ANGRY
THAT LIFE TOOK YOU,
IT DOES'NT MAKE SENCE
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.
EACH DAY SEEM'S PIONTLESS
LIKE LIVING A LIE,
I LONG FOR MY END
UNTIL THEN, I ASK "WHY".
copywrite: Anne Ellender
☆ ♥ 30TH JUNE. 2009. ☆ ♥
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LOVE JUDE. X X
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♥ 13TH JUNE 2009 ♥
I hold you here in my heart,
And there you will always be,
No-one can ever take your place,
Because you mean the world to me.
How I wish to see you smile,
How I wish to see you again,
Because if you where back here in my life,
I wouldn't feel all this pain.
But nothing now can bring you back,
You have your new home above,
So we will just send plenty of kisses,
Loads of hugs, and lots of love.
Sleep tight Angel.
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written by Becky Tuffs 12-06-09
DON'T TELL ME TO MOVE ON
AS YOU THINK OF THE DAYS AHEAD,
WHEN ALL I HAVE, ARE THE DAY'S WE HAD.
DON'T TELL ME TO MOVE ON
AS YOU DREAM OF HAPPINESS
WHEN ALL I HAVE LEFT, IS SADNESS.
DON'T TELL ME TO MOVE ON
FOR YOU REALY DON'T KNOW
THE PAIN INSIDE, I DO NOT SHOW.
DON'T TELL ME TO MOVE ON
YOU STILL HAVE EVERYTHING
STILL YOU WANT MORE
ALL I NEED, HAS LEFT FOR SURE.
DON'T TELL ME TO MOVE ON
FOR THAT OFFENDS ME
YOU CAN'T BE THERE FOR ME.
Author: Anne Ellender.
HEAVEN
THEY SAY HEAVEN
IS A LOVELY PLACE,
FULL OF LOVING
KINDNESS AND GRACE.
THAT'S WHERE MY ANGEL'S
GONE TO STAY,
I KNOW HE'S WAITING
SAVING MY PLACE,
A SPECIAL ENTRY
THROUGH PEARLY GATES
A SHINY TICKET
OF GOLD AND LACE
A WONDEROUS JOURNEY
WE ALL WILL TAKE.
MY ANGEL
I WILL BE THERE,
HOWERVER LONG IT TAKES.
Copyrite: Anne Ellender.
I'LL FIND YOU
MY DARLING SON
I'M MISSING YOU,
I SO WISH,
THERE WAS SOMETHING
I COULD DO.
THEY CAN FIND
THE STARS AND THE MOON
UNHABITED PLANET'S
PREHISTORIC RELIC'S TO,
WHY CAN'T THEY
FIND HEAVEN
SO I CAN COME
AND GET YOU.
I WOULD DO
WHATEVER IT TAKES,
I KNOW, YOU KNOW THAT TO,
YOU KNOW
THERE IS NOTHING,
I WOULD'NT DO FOR YOU.
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH
YOU KNOW THAT'S TRUE,
I WON'T STOP
UNTIL I FIND YOU.
Copyrite: Anne Ellender.
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