| Location | Wigan |
| Age | 20 years |
| Cause of Death | Accident |
| Date of Birth | 04/10/1986 |
| Date of Death | 25/11/2006 |
| Visitors | 3,239 since 03/10/2008 |
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Tony was my son but also my friend. He found it hard to mix with people and turned to alcohol to
give himself confidence and in the end it was this that took his short life away from his three
brothers and his sister his dad his aunties uncles cousins grandparents nephews and nieces and of
course myself. He didnt have many friends only dean bootle and john burgess. He was an angel when he
was sober but a little devil when he had had a few beers. Its coming up to our Tonys 23rd birthday
so i thought i would update his memorial.It still feels like yesterday and i can still remember
every single detail of that day anyone who as lost their child will know what i mean the friday
before this happened we had had a falling out nothing unusual coz he was a little pest when he was
drunk he went sitting in the entry next to our house and i went in the bath i could hear him calling
me "mum "mum " i had locked the door until he had calmed down then when he went quiet i crept down
and unlocked the door coz i knew he would come in later, i lied in bed waiting to hear him come in
then he went in his room and only then could i fall asleep knowing he was safe,the next morning when
i got up for work he normally would be waiting outside the bedroom door to wind me up but he wernt
so just before i left for work i crept into his room to check he was ok and he looked so peacefull
fast asleep i went to work feeling happy. Around 12.30 on my way home from work i went a different
way home never done this before because the way i went was longer and i even waited in traffic when
there was none my usual way,i got home and it was silent but i could hear our tonys radio on in his
room but no noise so thought he might still be asleep,i then went to pick his dad up from work and
when we arrived back home i said to him listen he said what to i said its to quiet then my sister
rang and said she had passed an ambulance just around corner on my usual route home she asked was
our tony in but that was normal because everytime anything happened we always thought about him
being in trouble within 10 mins i had a phone call of a girl asking if our tony was ok i didnt want
to check his room i was to scared to. so i rang hospital and asked if he had been taken to hospital
and the nurse who answewed asked who i was and said she would ring me back as i put the phone down
and looked through the window i saw a woman look towards our house i knew then he had gone i said to
his dad when the police come to tell us dont open door at that moment i saw a car pull onto the
front of our house i just ran upstairs screaming dont tell me dont tell me i already knew i had lost
my baby boy. I remember them asking me to identify him a few days later and when i went to the
mortuary i saw him and he looked so happy i turned to the officer there and said he dont look like
hes dead to me and i know this sounds so stupid but i really thought they had made a mistake it was
only a few days later when i had not seen him that i began to realise he wernt going to come home
again It seems he had fallen drunk and a so called friend had run of and left him on a field to this
day i think if this person would have called an ambulance he would still be here,an old lady in her
late 80s i would say found him and tried to save him god bless her she tried all she could i went to
see her and she said she tried to bring him round but couldnt i cant thank this kind lady enough.I
have just found out a young lad found him first and ran to call an ambulance i only found this out a
few days ago and have still to thank him for doing so . Tony wasnt my youngest but he was in my eyes
my baby and will always be my baby,You know what i still feel the same pain today as i did that day
it wont ever go away and i dont want it to coz i wont ever forget him even for an hour. At his
funeral about a week later his three brothers and his cousin john who he was close to carried him
into church this was the first time i had seen his coffin it was heartbreaking and his eldest
brother warren stood up to speak about him it must of been so hard for him but he did him proud and
me to.lots of people came except the so called friend who i hope i never see again.I MISS YOU MY
BEAUTIFUL SON SO MUCH WILL THINK ABOUT YOU EVERY SECOND OF EVERYDAY. I DO BELIEVE YOU ARE IN A
BETTER PLACE AND WHEN IT COMES MY TIME TO GO I WILL BE SO HAPPY TO SEE YOU AGAIN. ALL MY LOVE NOW
AND ALWAYS FOR EVER AND EVER LOVE MUM XXXXXXXX AND IF YOUR READING THIS LOVE I DID FEEL THE KISS YOU
GAVE ME WHEN I WAS ALMOST ASLEEP AND IT FELT SO NICE.
5th November 2009
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LOVE JUDE.XX
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hi tony its only me your big bro happy birthday. love you loads and missing you so much i no we never used to say it much but no matter what we would always be there for each other i just wish you could be hear with us all are tylers 1 on sunday i wish you were hear so you could play with him you would love him so much and i no he would defently love you some times i sit there looking at him and i can see you in him it makes me smile but sometimes it makes me sad because i wish you was hear ime gona go for now bro so see you soon love you lad and really miss you love your big bro stephen,tyler and hazzy
★ FOREVER IN OUR HEARTS. ★
★ FOREVER IN OUR THOUGHTS. ★
★ FOREVER IN OUR PRAYERS. ★
★ FOREVER IN OUR SOULS. ★
★ WE WILL NEVER, EVER, FORGET YOU. ★
birthdays
its just after 5 in the morning and you would of been up now waiting to open your cards,this is your 3rd birthday the 3rd without being with your family. you had just turned 20 when we lost you but you were like peter pan never grew up you were like a 16 yr old in your ways god alone knows how much we all miss you and if i could give my life to bring you back i would, but we all know that cant happen god took you for a reason probably so you could look after all them litte babies that have been lost coz you were brilliant with kids. miss you so very much my beautiful angel, knowing we will all be together someday keeps me going and your brothers and sister aunties uncles grandparents friends all miss you so much. HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOVE FROM US ALL XXXXXXXXXXXXX AND LOADS OF HUGS XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
missing you so much
well lad ime sat here again cryin my eyes out again i miss you so much god only knows what i would do to have you back home with us all we all miss you like mad its never going to be the same ever again how could it be without you my little angel tormenting me all day long. you had the same sense of humour as me and there is always something i will notice and i would only have to turn to you and you could read my mind.when you were in the house you were always by my side and now i feel like half of me is missing. its your birthday soon love and everyone always brings you a card this will be the 3 rd one since you left us that horrible day and the pain is still the same love and miss you so much my darling son loads and loads of hugs and kisses love you xxxx mum xxxx
In my dreams, you are alive and well
Precious child, precious child
In my mind, I see you clear as a bell
Precious child, precious child
In my soul, there is a hole
That can never be filled
But in my heart, there is hope
'Cause you are with me still
In my heart, you live on
Always there never gone
Precious child, you left too soon
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart
In my plans, I was the first to leave
Precious child, precious child
But in this world, I was left here to grieve
Precious child, my precious child
In my soul, there is a hole
That can never be filled
But in my heart there is hope
And you are with me still
In my heart you live on
Always there, never gone
Precious child, you left too soon,
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart
God knows I want to hold you,
See you, touch you
And I know there's a heaven
And someday I will again
Please know you are not forgotten until then
In my heart you live on
Always there never gone
Precious child, you left too soon
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart
miss u tony !! ull neva be forgotten !!
god i didnt even no u was on eya else i would ov rote sooner. god tony i always think bout u i always think about dat day u passed away. i seen u in da morning in tesco up pem. n u was shouting ur ed off lol. ill not say wot u said 2 me but u n i no wot u said n i walked out n left u coz u made me all embarrassed. lol. i wish i hadnt coz u never no u mite not be wer u r now. member dat time wen we was in mine wen i lived up pem n we drunk all my mums martini. n u didnt wana go after dat coz u cudnt be bovard walkin ome. n for u 2 go i ad give u my mums over bottle ov martini. cheeky get lol. but dats wot i loved about u. im with dean bootle now. one ov ur close mates. god wen i was wiv u i didnt even no im. well i didnt like im e used get on my nerves lol. n look wer i am now. n some things wot e does r so like wot ud do. e says e misses u n dont be falling sleep anywer up der like u did down eya lol. anyway ill be thinking about u on my birthday n ur birthday coz its day after mine init 4th october. miss u n love u 4eva tony. cya up der. love u lots n lots like jellytots but not as much as vodka shots. sleeptite. lucy x x x x
*** DREAMS ***
DREAMS DON'T REALY COME TRUE,
NIGHTMARES STAY, FOR SURE,
ALL HOPES OF BEFOR
HAVE LEFT THROUGH THE DOOR
NOW YOUR HERE, NO MORE.
DREAMS ARE FOR THE LUCKY,
WHO KNOW NOT WHAT SORROW BRINGS
TO HAVE HOPES FOR THE FUTURE
NOT MEMORIES FROM THE PAST
AND AN ACHE THAT FOREVER LAST'S.
BUT, MY DREAM'S ARE PRECIOUS
THE BEST I'V EVER HAD,
MY MEMORIES ARE MY TREASURES
OF A LIFE THAT WAS SO GLAD,
IT'S ONLY WHEN THE NIGHTFALLS,
MY WORLD DOES'NT FEEL SO BAD.
Copyrite. Anne Ellender. 2009
LONELY DAY
AS THE MORNING SUN RISES
I PULL MYSELF OUT OF BED
NO MORE CONVERSATION
NOTHING MORE TO BE SAID
THOUGHT'S RUNNING THROUGH MY HEAD
DREAMING OF HOW IT SHOULD BE
SAT HERE ON MY OWN
THE WORST KIND OF LONLEY
KNOWING I SHOULD BE SMILING AT MY SON
THE DAY AHEAD STILL MUST BE DONE
I PULL MYSELF UP AND TAKE ON THE CHORE
BEHIND ME SLOWLY CLOSING THE DOOR
MY MASK IN PLACE I FACE THE DAY
ONLY REALY WANTING TO RUN AWAY
AH SOON THE DAY WILL BE DONE
AND BACK TO THE EMPTY ROOM THAT BELONGS TO MY SON
HERE I WILL SIT, I'LL REMINICE
LONGING FOR MY SON, BY MY SIDE TO SIT
THE NIGHTIME FALLS AND MY PILLOW CALLS
AT LAST ONCE AGAIN, IN MY DREAMS....
MY DARLING SON I CAN HOLD.
copyrite: Anne Ellender.
my long lost luv ov my life
MY TONY MY LOVE MISSIN U MUCH...
A WISH ME ND U STAYED 2GEVA N INTOUCH,
B4 U WAS SADLY TOOKAWAY FROM THIS CRUE3L WORLD
MY HEART IN PIECES SO HURT ND CHURNED
A WISH A CUD JUST TURN BK THE TIME BUT I CANT,
N AL NEVER BE ABLE2 SO DATS NOWT 2 AV IN MIND
AL NEVER FORGET U R LET A DAY PASS BY TO NEVER AV
U IN MY PRAYERS N MY THOUGHTS DAY N NITE
KISS ME HOLD ME LUV ME SO RITE
OH ITS A DREAM N IT NT REALLY GUD IN MY SIGHT..
UR IMAGES OV U ND UR BIG BLUE EYES
ND UR DARK LONG LASHES, A ADMIRED THAT LIT UR FACE UP SO BRIGHT.. UR GAWJUS SMILE N UR DIMPLES SO FINE,,AV FROM START N WILL TILL END O TIME...XXXX
TONY I LOVE U ALWAYS
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